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Thursday, January 15, 2009

Cold Reality

I don't know why I find it so difficult to put into words the announcement that Andy's orders have begun and he is currently far away. Maybe it's because I like to retain a reputation of some strong insanely spiritual saint that can go through periods of intense loneliness with nothing but the best of attitudes, and it's hard for me to talk about Andy being gone without the obvious not seeping through. I feel as though I have just waken up, wondering if all that beauty I had just so blissfully experienced was just a dream. Reality is as cold as the 30-below windchill outside. It fills me with dread to think Andy and I have but a few short increments of time together before he goes overseas. But how grateful I am for the 4 months we have spent together, loving each other and cherishing each others presence. Now if only something could happen to disintegrate the agonizing times of separation and life really would be good.

8 comments:

Jessica said...

Hey Brittney, Thanks for sharing. Not being married I won't try to tell you I understand and can really only imagine how hard it is. Just want to let you know I am thinking of you and praying for you often! May the Lord use this time to grow you closer and closer to Hi!

Jessica said...

Make that "in Him"! :-)

elizabeyta said...

I have been there. I will not tell you gets any easier with each deployment. I will tell you, you will figure out how to best get through for you. Pray. Spend time with family and friends. Stay busy. Breath. Take a walk. It all really helps. You will be in my prayers.

Elizabeth said...

Aww ... Brittney! *Hug!* I'm praying for you, dear!

Rebecca said...

My heart goes out to you, Brittney! You are in my thoughts today... : )

Arlene said...

Well, at least you know you're never alone... just remember that on those nights when you feel alone. I can't tell you how many times I've felt isolated when the bed is cold and the house is quiet, and then, somehow, I feel the comfort and presence of our Saviour and know this will pass. Stay busy, find a routine that works for you, and before you know it, you'll be running into your soldier's arms!
*hugs*

Ashleigh (Heart and Home) said...

Hugs, sweet girl. Wishing I could fly to you now and wrap you in a real life hug. Reading your words makes me catch my breath, just reliving that feeling... one no military wife ever wishes on another. Praying Jesus will wrap you in His arms when your soldier's are absent.

Kate said...

Britney! Oh I feel for you! HUG

I will be praying for you both!